“Is It True?” New Era, Jan. 2004, 48
When I was 12 I started to question everything about the gospel. For a couple of years I struggled with my testimony. I never seemed to feel the Spirit. Many times in my personal prayers I begged my Father in Heaven in tears to let me feel the Spirit and know the Church was true. I was often disappointed.
Despite struggling, I got more involved with the scriptures and found one verse in the book of Ether that really helped me: “But he that believeth these things which I have spoken, him will I visit with the manifestations of my Spirit, and he shall know and bear record. For because of my Spirit he shall know that these things are true” (Ether 4:11).
Because of this scripture I began to trust the Lord and believe the gospel was true, trusting that He would confirm His words.
I don’t remember exactly when I first started to feel the Spirit. Instead I gradually became aware that I had felt the Spirit many times throughout my life and simply hadn’t recognized it.
I testify that if you sincerely seek to feel the Spirit, you will. I know that prayer is so very real and that every sincere prayer is answered. Above all, I know that Jesus Christ is my Savior and that He knows and loves me and each one of us personally.