There's nothing good about pornography. It affects every facet of life. Finally, I got to the point where I knew deep within my heart I've got a problem and I actually went to my wife to talk to her about it and let her know that I am struggling and I want help. We went in to talk to our bishop. He was loving. He was caring. I began counseling through a gentleman that our bishop had contact with. I completely and totally felt that I was ready to talk about the things that I had chosen to do. I was able to begin the full disclosure of my addiction and all of its details.

I remember being on my knees and just pleading with God to heal my sweetheart. I knew her heart was broken. I knew she was devastated. I was also pleading for forgiveness. I heard in my mind, Troy, I forgive you. I forgive you.

While I was kneeling down, there came a knock at the door. It was my bishop, and he just said, Troy, I had this overwhelming feeling that I needed to stop and tell you that the Lord had forgiven you. My sweetheart shared a scripture with me where it talks about the holy spirit bearing witness of things as they really are and as they really will be. It was her way of telling me things will be OK. The Savior took a broken man, he took a broken heart, he took a broken soul, and quite simply, he mended it. My wife and I, we've never been closer. I can't even begin to measure what the Lord has done for me and my family. He transformed me from a self-loathing, self-hating, self-destructive individual, and he healed me.