12 Steps to Change

    Step 12: Service - Erik’s Story on Drug Addiction Recovery

    Step 12

    Erik's story on addiction recovery using the 12 step program.3:35

    One night, Erick’s drug addiction led him to overdose and fall three stories from a building. Still recovering from his addiction and his fall, Erik knows that sharing what he has learned with others who need help is one of the most miraculous aspects of recovery.

    Step 12 - Service: Having had a spiritual awakening as a result of the Atonement of Jesus Christ, share this message with others and practice these principles in all you do.

    Those who face addictions often struggle with the consequences of their choices for many years, sometimes for their whole lives. The outcomes that are portrayed in this video series do not reflect the possible range of outcomes that may be experienced by others. If you or someone you love is experiencing these challenges, or would like more information about addiction recovery, please visit addictionrecovery.lds.org.


      I remember driving down, going into the city, and thinking, "I've never used this frequently before in my life. This is dangerous, and I probably need something like rehab." I still went there. Someone else prepared the drug for me. He asked me, "This is kind of a lot. Is that OK?" And I said yes. And I took the drug, and within seconds I was on the floor. I had an overdose, and I chose for that to happen. The aftermath of this--and I don't know all of the details because I blacked out at a certain point. But I don't know how else to explain it.

      I guess I jumped. I fell from the third story. I shattered my pelvis. I shattered my arm. I had to learn to walk again. In a couple of weeks we'll undergo the sixth of seven procedures to get my nose close to what it was before, and that is the culmination of my over half a million dollars in medical bills.

      So I'd been going to 12-step meetings for about six years before all of this happened. As I went more consistently, I found that my life just started to fall into place. Now that I know how important it is for me to share with others what I know, I go every week. And I'm able to facilitate a meeting.

      Step 12, to me, is being in a place where I am able to reach out to those who are struggling and to then let them know that they are not alone, because there was a point where I felt that I was totally alone and that there's no way that I could ever be forgiven. The 12 steps helped me focus on the fact that not only am I an addict, but I am a son of God. And it's so important that I share that knowledge, because it was hard-won knowledge. And that is why it's so important for me to share this message with others through service.